Saturday, October 01, 2005

two steps forward, one step back

i've been wanting to move to nashville since before i graduated college. that's been two years. over the last couple months, it's been a reality, but it's still in the distant future. over the last couple days, it's moved closer into the near future.

there are a few things that have come into play over the last couple days...and slowly it seems like the perfect opportunity has presented itself. without going into much detail, i'll try to explain. i have a friend who got a job in nashville who is looking for a roommate. at the same time, my stepdad started encouraging to go ahead and move by saying they'd help me out. so all of this coming together i started thinking more about it. this weekend, it's been pretty much all i could think about. it seems so right. i'm absolutely miserable where i am now...no friends...no job...no church...nothing to do. i'm lonely, depressed, and bored. it's not been fun for me by any means. so i get excited about possibly taking a leap of faith and moving forward. it sounds so great.

i went to bed last night with my mind made up that i was going to go ahead and do it. i'm okay with falling on my face. a bruised ego is about the worst thing that could happen, and it definitely won't be the first...or last time as far as i'm concerned. so this morning, i get not one, but two phone calls for interviews. the only problem is...they're for here, not nashville. enter the one step back.

so pretty much all day i've been weighing pros and cons and thinking and thinking and then trying not to think. i don't know what's going to happen, and i definitely can't tell the future, but i'm hoping things are going to start heading in the right direction and i'll get all my ducks in a row (whatever that means).

i'm not the kind of girl to make a decision based on what other people say or think. but i do like to know what other people think about certain situations. and i love to know what the people who care about me think...so...comment if you love me and tell me what you think. or, you can vote!






what do you think i should do?
stay where i am and move in january
take a risk and move now




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5 comments:

Andrea said...

ok, so everytime i try to vote it says that the poll is no longer available...regardless, i love you and think you should take the jump. you talked about it all summer, everytime you talk about it now you get so excited, and you haven't found anything to make you happy there in e-town. you know what you should do...

emily said...

hey amy t.! i would be very excited if you could join me in nashville. it's a fun town, minus the driving...i really like it. hope your job search goes well. see ya soon! did you know that your title is a great 80's hit, by my hero when I was 8 yes..I know it is sad, but Paula Abdul...

Anonymous said...

my personal favorite song for your name is by pure praire league. its an oldie but goodie.

Anonymous said...

Be brave and be happy, or die trying that's my new motto. Move now and dont look back

Amy said...

chris,
i like that song too, but unfortunately i spell my name different.